NaNoWriMo: Day 2
Nov. 2nd, 2006 11:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
arqueeteI have a LOT of catching up to do.
I've been rather down lately. Feeling ill all the time in school the last few days stresses me out, I have to struggle to concentrate and I don't feel like I'm really there. This has lead me, among other things, to botch up an important geometry assignment. When I think about getting that paper back with the, now that I understand them after the fact, fairly easy problems marked 'Minimal' (My geometry teacher's equivalent of an F), I feel just... ashamed and exhausted. I worked hard to stay on top of things in that class, and I was jsut getting by, and in one day when I wasn't myself I could've put a dent in it. It's the end of the quarter and I'm sick and I can't keep on top of my work right now (or so it feels like) and I'm just out of time to fix it. I'm happy for this three-day weekend because despite coming off another long weekend and having missed one day this week, I feel like I can't do another day.
My NaNo is as lacking of sense and out-of-body sounding as I feel, and I'm still almost a full day behind. My MC sounds like a puppet in some symbolic position reflecting how I'm feeling who just gets ranted at incessantly by the people around her and lacks in clear motivation and personality.
I've changed my quote.
"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person... Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth." ~ Brian Slade
I considered giving up today, or at least not writing for the day, because I was feeling like it was another stress pulling me down and with everything else my motivation for it just wasn't there. But, I realized, just as I came to see last year, I need to do NaNo to tell myself how I feel.
I think I just need sleep.
Ideal word count: 3334
Word count: 1901
Here's a gift: Switchfoot - The Blues
I've been rather down lately. Feeling ill all the time in school the last few days stresses me out, I have to struggle to concentrate and I don't feel like I'm really there. This has lead me, among other things, to botch up an important geometry assignment. When I think about getting that paper back with the, now that I understand them after the fact, fairly easy problems marked 'Minimal' (My geometry teacher's equivalent of an F), I feel just... ashamed and exhausted. I worked hard to stay on top of things in that class, and I was jsut getting by, and in one day when I wasn't myself I could've put a dent in it. It's the end of the quarter and I'm sick and I can't keep on top of my work right now (or so it feels like) and I'm just out of time to fix it. I'm happy for this three-day weekend because despite coming off another long weekend and having missed one day this week, I feel like I can't do another day.
My NaNo is as lacking of sense and out-of-body sounding as I feel, and I'm still almost a full day behind. My MC sounds like a puppet in some symbolic position reflecting how I'm feeling who just gets ranted at incessantly by the people around her and lacks in clear motivation and personality.
I've changed my quote.
"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person... Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth." ~ Brian Slade
I considered giving up today, or at least not writing for the day, because I was feeling like it was another stress pulling me down and with everything else my motivation for it just wasn't there. But, I realized, just as I came to see last year, I need to do NaNo to tell myself how I feel.
I think I just need sleep.
Ideal word count: 3334
Word count: 1901
Here's a gift: Switchfoot - The Blues
